RIP Bernice Frankel

Bernice Frankel was born May 13th 1922 and passed on to a better life on April 25th, at the age of 86. She lived a long and full life, if you still dont know who i am talking about one of my favorate comiediannes of her time, Bea Arthur. Originally studying to become a medical lab technician, she quickly switched career choices after seeing medical work as TEDIOUS. She started taking drama and in 1958 had a first role on broadway "The threepenny opera" was her very first paid break. In the 1960s she then appeared in the original broadway performance for fiddler on the roof.Also appearing in "Mame" with Angela Landsbury. Her first regular TV work was for "ceasars hour" comedy sketch show. then in the 70s became the character we all know as "Maude", her title character was a once widowed, and twice divorced, quick witted individual. Finally in the 80s she hit it even bigger with the role of "Dorthy" in the golden girls. Which was and still is one of my favorite sitcoms of all time. The show went from 1985-1992.
As far as I am concerned she lived a full life of succeeding on doing what SHE wanted to do, I have always admired her and her work, and yes i still do watch golden girls to this day, that show wont ever get old as far as great sitcoms are concerned. I have to thank my Granny for the wonderful intro to the golden girls:)

Absence vs. absolution

What i meant to entitle was black vs. white, and no this aint a racial thing i am talking about, it is a comparison. And proof that my newer relationship with Shawn is a completion of each other:) When i first moved in Shawns bathroom was full of white towels, until i multicoulored the shit out of it....mwahaha. i ask him why that is, cause i dont own one white towel, they are my mortal enemy. I hate white, stains so easily, and really i dont want items that i have to bleach all the time to keep clean. Unfortunatley he told me that white is a good colour for a bathroom. As in my old place where i lived alone, my bathroom was black. So i came in with everything but white, twisted his whole world around, and now we couldnt be happier. We talked today about how, black and white are completely opposites but still complete each other and look good together. Black being the sign of abscence, and white well perhaps the opposite sign of absolution, but yet work together. Who knows maybe someday he can move me to to a brighter colour, he is already on a good road to it:)

Longing to look in our daughters eyes:):)

Life alterations happen on a daily basis, but one of the biggest ones in a mommy to be is the birth of her unborn child. Especially a first time mommy. Questions, worries (which by the way I have never done so much), which is why we have people in our lives to answer those questions, thankful for those people by far, then there are the books, and the internet, maybe tv once in a while (the whole reason I watch Nanny 911) nanny always has some good thoughts to share:) We have approx. 8 weeks left in this journey I call pregnancy. Then we get to look in our daughters eyes, the one step we have both been longing for since the beginning.

Could be considered a good day today:)

Ok so we decided today to go out and search some more, a place we did come by tonight, I even coughed up the money for it, as soon as I saw it. This place is much pricier, and its in the hood, but its on an upper level which means we are still getting renters insurance, and we are going to have to choose what gang colours we are going to start worshipping and wearing. But to have a place and move in is may 1st, feels so much better!!! I am more so excited to set up Emmas room, and I am sure I will have plenty of time to do that while on my mat leave. Which should be coming up soon. Its going to feel nice to not have to put up with people who have no common sense (ie customer service) for a whole year. However I will miss working, but I can always go back to that. In the meantime, i will just work at home for no pay. 2 months and 6 days, will come faster and faster by the day. Meeting mr. obstetrican tommorrow, and applying for my mat leave, hopefully everything going smoothly, but who knows, there is always thorns on roses in life.

On a nice stretch off, so I am blogging again....

So here is the best part of the year, yes folks you guessed it, the beginning of a new spring, fresh flowers, showers, and of course we cant forget the hot beaming sun:) As during winter you never feel the potential of the sun. And of course within the next few months, 2 to be exact, I will have a permanent beam of sunshine. Emma shall arrive and change our lives forever, she already has for the most part. We are slowly preparing for her little arrival, not having much luck at the moment, but also not losing hope. As most landlords in the city now do not want children in their places, I mean we may as well have a giant boxer type dog that barks all hours into the night, as per their reaction. And yes some do take babies, but they charge you extra now as the ones who do take kids are rare to find, so why not make a bit of profit off of their "thoughtfulness". We are having to wait a few years to buy a house as, the downpayment alone is a bitch to save up. And it wont help that i wont be working a month or two from now. We are doing what we can for now though, i am sure there is more we could be doing, and dont worry we are resorting to everything possible. Either way there is always a light at the end of a tunnel, just sometimes theres something or someone blocking it once in a while. In the meantime, we will just have to keep trying and maybe something will pop-up.

I also have a salute to do today...a salute to those people out there who believe that people such as myself shall never change and that even something as amamzing as a child shall never have an impact, to those and believe me you know who you are i would just like to say, look in the mirror for a second and try to lye to yourself that you are and always have been perfect, and please make sure you make yourself look all pretty while doing so, that way the make-up can cover up your doubt more than your own words ever could.

One last thing to reach my conclusion after this more or so bitter blogging today: I could not be happier as to where i am right now, I know why certain things happen, and its always for a good reason:)